Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Sowing Seeds

Whilst serving on the missionary ship, the Dolous, the Lord introduced me to Isaiah 55:11.

“So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it”

Thanks to God, after sharing my testimony (Rev 12:11), I have experienced many people coming to faith and giving their life to Jesus. This has happened in Australia, Cambodia, Malaysia, Philippines and Thailand. Literally hundreds of people being saved; it soon becomes very addictive. Heaven shares the joy of the sinner repenting and thus your heart races in excitement when it occurs. However, when I experienced it not happening - I started worrying.

What did I do wrong? Did I say the testimony incorrectly? Did I not talk enough about Jesus Christ? Was I too forceful? Was I too timid? God listened intently to my questions. It was then I was handed Isaiah 55:11. For me it was a revelation.

‘My word will not return void’. I instantly realised what God was saying. His word is so powerful it created the universe. It will achieve its purpose, though sometimes like a seed it takes time to grow. As humans we cannot even contemplate the authority of God’s word. Yet even our own words can command authority. A policeman can tell you what to do and you are obligated to oblige – or else. A Judge can sentence you with his words and your own position will not affect the finality of his sentence. A Doctor’s words (the diagnosis of a terminal illness) can have devastating effect. Human words have power. Imagine the words of God.

This week I shared my testimony at Summerville Baptist School. I had been invited to speak to the whole grade seven students. I was excited as usual. The night before I had prayed to the Lord and asked Him to sow seeds. These young people were all around twelve. Within two or three years the temptations of alcohol and drugs will inevitably emerge. I wanted seeds planted that would bring them closer to God and further from the foolishness of the world.

I arrived and found sixty wonderful children and their teachers. Projector was all set up including speakers. God had paved the way. I introduced myself and showed the presentation. I then talked about moving from soldier of the world to soldier of God. The children listened attentively. At the end many asked questions and I was encouraged by what they asked. Many were seeking advice in regard to someone they knew; a mother struggling with alcohol, an older brother that had been attacked in Northbridge. For twelve year olds it was startling.

The head master stood up and thanked me sincerely. Amazingly, he then said the following words... “I am sure many seeds have been sown after your talk”. The precise words I had asked for in prayer were repeated back to me. I smiled and choked back a tear. When God speaks through someone (and you are aware of it) you are always overwhelmed.

I was handed an envelope as a thank you. In the car I opened it. It was a thirty dollar hardware voucher. I choked back another tear. God was reassuring me that the Rehab farm will come (in His time). “Here is a voucher to buy some nails or a hammer when the right time comes. Or perhaps a spade to sow some seeds? “

I drove home in Joy. The children had even approached me after the talk and took brochures about Harvest of Hope. Again you could sense their concern for their loved ones. Along the highway I contemplated all that had happened. As I reviewed the talk word by word, I glanced sideways at a car passing by. On it was written “Bravo”. God was actually thanking me. And whilst the little ones were not asked to give their lives to Jesus (the timing and setting not right) His word never returns empty. Seeds were sown and that is what matters.

The Bar

As I study idolatry and addictions, I often come across interesting testimonies and insightful sayings. Idolatry is the root sin that starts it all (the downward spiral of sin), you can find that startling conclusion in Romans 1:17-28. Yet once we turn to other 'gods',  we then become ensnared by them. For myself, for seventeen years, it was alcohol. Thanks be to Jesus Christ I am free now. Yet the memory of the often tragic exploits of a drunkard linger on. I found this poem in one of the books I am reviewing. For any that have struggled with drinking, the words will ring true. For those that still struggle, may these words help untangle you -

The Bar
The Saloon is called a bar...
It is more than that by far!
It's a bar to heaven, a door to hell,
Whoever named it, named it well.
A bar to manliness and wealth;
A door to want and broken health.
A bar to honor, pride and fame;
A door to grief, and sin and shame.
A bar to hope, a bar to prayer;
A door to darkness and despair.
A bar to an honored, useful life;
A door to brawling, senseless strife.
A bar to all that's true and brave;
A door to every drunkard's grave.
A bar to joys that home imparts;
A door to tears and aching hearts.
A bar to heaven, a door to hell;
whoever named it, named it well.
Anonymous

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Icing on the Cake

At the moment I seem to be under a fair amount of duress. Between a fulltime (four units a semester) Masters Degree in Theology (thus a spiritual journey as much as academic) and trying to establish a Christian Rehabilitation Centre, a volunteer Street Chaplain, helping within two local churches and an international one (Cambodia), the odd public speaking engagement and leading a men's Bible study, I often get a bit strung out. I don't know why. Oh I forgot, I am also working on a large scale Christian networking website (that's on the side in my free time). A Pastor the other day said to me "Super Jack" you should get a big J on your chest. And yet  I often feel I am not doing enough and find myself on my knees in tears to God.

The land for the rehab centre has had significant problems and I sense a trial, test or persecution (not sure which one to be honest) in the ongoing dealings with it. Thus the pressure often builds to a crescendo where you want to run away to the third world or something. During all of the above God is always there, a loving confidant, encourager and comforter. I couldn't do any of this without God. I would simply be on drugs as I was in the past, unable to face stress unless 'out of it'.

I lost my temper in a theological lecture and stormed out. I didn't agree with what was being said and rather than exploding I left. Much to the lecturer's dismay I might add. Ironically that very morning I had prayed to God and asked Him to help me be gentle. I felt the whole world is against me. I felt alone, persecuted and unable to trust anyone - except God. Thus i wanted the Creator of the universe to drop whatever He is doing (cant be that important ) and attend to ME! I surely try God's patience and praise Him with all my heart that He is the God that He is. A God of long suffering, long suffering in putting up with us.

Did God punish me? Did He chastise me? Did He send a message letting me know I was being so unreasonable and demanding and deserve condemnation for losing my temper? No... He anointed me...

By Sunday I had calmed down somewhat. A lot of prayer (hours of it) and plenty of Bible reading. I went to a night Church I love very much, an outreach to the needy and downcast. A meal is provided and a full service. Often God uses me there helping people, however, last Sunday I needed help. I felt like a wounded soldier or a blindfolded boxer in the ring with three opponents. The Pastor came up to me out of the blue and said 'I need to speak to you about what is happening'. I said 'ok', I was humbled enough to accept any help I could get and needed to trust someone!

I explained to him about the Rehab land (metaphorically that was the right hook, the other happenings more like well timed left jabs). At the end he said do you mind if I anoint you with oil? Five intense years in fulltime ministry and nobody has ever offered such a thing. This particular Pastor is a nice man he faces some very real spiritual forces (working with convicts, drug addicts and homeless you always do), thus he is no fool. His request and offer caught me off guard. I accepted sheepishly. He placed a fragrant oil on my forehead and prayed asking for blessing  and rebuked (in Christ's name) any schemes of the Devil coming against me.

I left the Church in wonderment. Thinking 'I've been anointed?'. That doesn't happen everyday. That week I was forgiven for my outburst in class. Thankfully. I then received a high distinction for my Research Proposal on idolatry and addiction. A mature brother came up to me, someone I respect, and said "never give up jack" - I sensed the Holy Spirit speaking through him. Lastly we were invited for a coffee for our final lecture by our Doctorate. When he suggested it I remember thinking maybe I should buy a cake and bring it along?, I then thought No, I will just leave it.
When I walked into the class later that night a Miss Maud's Chocolate Cake was sitting on the table. I stared at it in disbelief. Another student had purchased it. I knew straight away it was God's hand. I had decided I can't be bothered buying one, so God had prompted someone else to. It was literally the icing on the cake for Him comforting me.

I pray someone reads this and may see how real God truly is; so real He became a man, died on a cross for our sin and then sent His Spirit to comfort us. Why did He do that? God is Love, that's why.

God Bless

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Joy

The second fruit of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22) is Joy. Elsewhere in the Bible it states "The Joy of the Lord is my strength". It's true. The Lord's Joy is very different to happiness though. Happiness is fleeting, like an ice cream. Nice enough whilst you are eating it, however, when it's finished so to is the sensation. Happiness can't give us strength when the world deals us a blow.

Tonight at the Community Cafe (our Church's dinner outreach) I felt the Lord's Joy and blessing. I enjoy serving, you get to know the people there, none of us are perfect, yet I fall in love with all of them. We become family as we serve one another. It is a lovely experience. It's God working in community (Theologian Stanley Grentz would agree enthusiastically). Tonight I gave a brief talk, I spoke of Christ, and our Lord's suffering in exchange for our joy. Afterwards I was overwhelmed by the people who thanked me. Many of them were new comers to the Church (some for the first time) yet they responded sincerely with warmth. It was so encouraging; the Joy continued to grow in me.

As I departed a new friend, I will call her Kat (I know she is reading this!), did one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me. Ever. She gave me a box of Bibles. Brand new beautiful Bibles. Each one a pathway to heaven for someone's soul. More precious than gold. More valuable than any treasure, the gift of eternity. I had to contain my tears.  Receiving Bibles from someone is also a gift directly from God. In this case through His daughter Kat. Nobody has ever given me Bibles before. I have bought over a thousand and given them all away. Tonight someone gave me some Bibles. I thank God for her. The exciting part is now waiting to see who will receive them. Stay tuned and be patient - God will get us there!

As I left, overwhelmed, I found my laptop had been stolen. At first I couldn't believe it. I ransacked the car and searched the church. Sure enough it was gone. Everyone was sympathetic. I thought during it, "Ok God, If you want the laptop gone that's ok, I know you will bring a good from this". I even thought God was doing such so i could get an extension on some assignments! One thing I didn't want to do was complain, or whinge too much. It was gone. The Lord Jesus states do not store up your treasure on earth. I don't, however, my theological assignments were stored up in the laptop. A full four  years worth. A friend made us pray in a huddle. We even started to accuse who may have done it. Thankfully the general consensus was not to. I remember saying everyone is innocent till proven guilty. I tried to hold onto the Lord's Joy; rather than let external circumstances effect the internal. If you do that you become a thermometer: up and down with the weather.

I decided to go home, I said "oh well I will get a new one tomorrow". My friends were all genuinely concerned. One wonderful man, Trevor, said with his innocent faith, "God will bring a good from it". I looked at him and thanked him. I knew The Holy Spirit was talking through him. As I turned and walked out the Church, another friend's wife called me back. The laptop had been found. Someone had placed it in the office for safe keeping. Relief flooded over everyone. And I did the dance (see Evan Almighty). The genuine relief in my friends was incredibly touching. Everyone was in Joy.

I see lessons in all of it. God wanted us to remain in joy laptop or not. It doesn't effect our salvation . The  salvation that Christ paid dearly for us on the cross. Under intense suffering He cried, "My God, My God why have you forsaken me?" however, if you use what is theologically called canonical contextual criticism (reading across the Bible horizontally - Scripture interpreting Scripture) you then get a deeper understanding of what Christ goes on to think. It is all there in Psalm 22. It begins with the aforementioned sentence, yet near conclusion states "may your hearts live forever!" (Psalm 22:26). Later we know Christ calls out in a loud powerful voice "IT IS FINISHED!". What was happening? He was exchanging the most intense suffering humanity will never know;  for your salvation, joy and eternal life. It is worth more than the entire earth. For even if we gained the whole earth but forfeited our soul, what good is that?

The Lord's Joy - may it become our strength.

God Bless

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Bridging the Gap

The ministry of Street Chaplains is bearing more and more fruit as it impacts the lives of many. This includes the interaction with Perth's Police Force. Last Friday night was no exception. We met as usual outside Police headquarters for our rostered night on. One of the Chaplains had made a wonderful inclusion to our backpack. She had placed all the first aid supplies into a fold out kit, complete with transparent compartments, it was perfect. You could see all the supplies neatly in each section and thus quickly get to what you needed. I thanked her and praised God. I had wanted the first aid supplies placed into something like this. Rummaging through a large backpack was time consuming and difficult to see what you required, especially if someone is bleeding, overdosing or vomiting! The new kit was an answer to prayer. I walked into the police meeting beaming ear to ear.

The briefing room was full of police. Much more than usual and I wondered if there was a specific operation on with nearly forty police crammed into the room. The Operational Team Leader was a new Sergeant. He warmly introduced himself to us and asked about our specific skills. I told him we are all first aid trained, thus can care for the injured, clean up vomit, escort women to taxis or counsel 'troublesome' side liners. He was genuinely impressed with what we could do. Subsequently we were given a positive introduction to the entire shift, at which many senior officers nodded their heads approvingly. No doubt they had witnessed the Chaplains 'get their hands dirty' on numerous occasions.

We were asked to repeat our skills to the whole group. Feeling a tinge of nervousness I stood up and reiterated the medical side of things. Additionally mentioning we can wait with the injured for the ambulance, thus freeing officers to return to the 'fray'. Again we received nods of approval. As we left I briefly contemplated how I had only really mentioned first aid support rather than anything else. I put it down to nerves, it was a large police presence after all. We later found out that over twenty new recruits had been placed on duty at the last moment. Thus more and more of the force was being exposed to the Chaplains. Praise God.

Our first major incident was a call, by police, to a drunken young woman. We headed to Hay street and found her on a park bench. Her boyfriend was near, however, he was not really helping much. I knelt down placed my hand on her hair, the female Chaplain placing her hand on her back, stroking her caringly. I prayed internally asking God to get rid of the alcohol. I suppose I expected a miraculous intervention where God would zap the alcohol in her and she would revive. God had other plans. She vomited.

Lots of cheap red wine. Lots of it. As she vomited we cleaned her face, gave water and reassured her over and over that she would be ok. Eventually there was nothing left to come out. She recovered, got up, and staggered off with her boyfriend. Thanking us all, we received hugs and kisses. She must have been no more than 22 and a Canadian backpacker. The team of three walked off, we had bonded through the incident. God had used us and we were all encouraged.

Our team was highly experienced  One gentleman had served the Lord in Malaysia, Manchester and held theological degrees. The other lady had served the Lord for over 20 years including missionary time in Africa. I myself, no novice to mission, and also armed with theological training. Often the bonding of such teams can be difficult. Everyone knows what they are doing! And so this first incident brought us together. We were a 'team' now rather than individual servants. By the end of the night we would know why...

Two hours later we were walking along one of Northbridge's busy streets. Our lady Chaplain noticed some police across the road and so we ventured towards them. They were closing off the area with crime scene tape. A  man lay on the cold pavement with a blood drenched face. As we looked on an officer knelt over the injured man, gloves on, he was trying to talk with him.

Entering into crime scenes amongst the wounded, numerous police officers and flashing lights isn't exactly what I had expected as a young Pastor. I enjoy preaching. Well crafted sermons and people commending you for your exegetical insights! I love how God has a sense of humour. In the army I was comfortable with first aid.  And so God often places me in such situations. You are never comfortable though when it isn't a first aid dummy, but rather a living soul.

I sat down trying to contain nerves as I put the blue surgical gloves on. The audience had grown to over 20 police and the usual onlookers. The other Chaplains were thankfully reassuring me as I stepped in to the crime scene, pretending I do this all the time! I sat beside the officer and pulled out the brand new medical kit. Unrolling it in full view (for the first time) the officer immediately pointed at a gauze bandage and we began to work together. I was just managing to keep up with the Lord, the new first aid kit made perfect sense now. So did the initial talk at the police briefing! It looked highly professional for the Chaplains to step into such a situation, gloved and with medical kit rolled out beside the injured. Everyone could see the bold "Street Chaplain" letters on our backs as we lent over the bleeding man.

I passed the officer some saline solution and he cleaned the wound  then crepe bandage which I cut with some scissors. The other Chaplain came over and  while the officer was asking the injured man his name. When he replied, the Chaplain was shocked. He knew him! He knew the boy well, and, he was a Christian. We both realised God was intensely involved and tried to compose ourselves. The Chaplain was able to ring his parents there and then and speak reassuringly to the boy. When the ambulance arrived he escorted him to the hospital. The boy had been punched, however, he had hit the pavement and thus all were worried about spinal injury. He lost a tooth and had a nasty gash above his eye. Northbridge late at night is not the place for Christians to have a 'good time'.

The next incidence was even more intense. The boys' brother was there. And all of a sudden he started to lose his sanity. He was weeping then would go into an uncontrollable rage. I stood with him trying to talk to him, then he began thumping his head against a wall. Hard. An officer came over and we both turned him around and sat him down. I then began praying (internally) as I kept my hand on him. Every few moments he would slip back into a rage. He was a very powerfully built young man and would tense every muscle. Two officers came over and all three of us interacted with him. You could literally feel the rage, it was like a volcano waiting to explode. We would try to calm him down, all the three of us holding him (me praying the entire time).

At one point my simple prayer to God was "God do something!" He then fell asleep... He literally fell over into a sleep! You stand there trying to catch your breath as you view the miraculous. One moment a young man is flexing every muscle going into an explosive rage, you and two large officers holding him, you pray "God Help!" and the man falls over asleep! It was all surreal.

He woke up a moment later and went back into the rage. Eventually the officers put handcuffs on him. I had to resist helping put his arms behind his back, stepping out of the way at that moment, a voice in my head said this part isn't your jurisdiction.. The police were genuinely thankful I was there, I knew that much.
I kept praying and eventually the boy seemed to come back to the land of the living. He had a large lump on his forehead and he didn't even know how it got there! No one was home during the rage - something else was.

The police took his hand cuffs off and I offered a tissue to blow his nose. He was gentle as a lamb now and talking with us. His older brother arrived and we felt we could leave. I said to the officer we are going to go. He immediately turned around took off his glove, shook our hands and thanked us. He wrote down our names and said he would be emailing his Superior to personally thank us for our help. We bridged a gap they cannot provide were his very words.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

I went to the local Church tonight for a dinner outreach. Each Thursday a meal is put on for anyone who wants to come along. It is a blessing to serve others and enjoy the fellowship there. Full time theological study can be intense. Having a break to  put  into practice what you have learnt is greatly appreciated. Tonight was no exception. I often get the opportunity to share a Biblical message (between dinner and desert) however, tonight was a friend's turn.

He had emailed me during the week and asked me to source him some pictures for his proposed talk. One showing the detail of the internal organs of a human body and the other showing the separation of man to God and Christ as the bridge. I remember feeling annoyed at being asked to do such (I was busy with my own work for God) however, managed to suppress my selfish nature long enough to source the pictures for my friend. After I sent them I received two thank you emails and subsequently felt rotten for begrudgingly doing it given the warm thanks I received. We really ALL fall short of God's glory. Being truthful helps us see our need for God more and more - in every way.

On arriving at the Church I was quite excited.  I walked up to my friend and asked if he had included Scripture in his message? He is an avid creationist and as wonderful as that is often ramps up the creation rather than the Creator's Word. I felt the need to give a subtle and soft reminder of having God's Word included in his message. We only speak for about 5 mins as many that come are non believers and we feel best to not go over the top with preaching. We do, however, ensure that a short Biblical message or testimony is given each week. It's a nice balance.

Thankfully my friend was in no way offended and responded how about John 3:16? I said sure (I did feel though that it didn't really match with his message ). I walked off and asked God for some Scripture to give him. Immediately the verse "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made" popped into my head. I thought - Perfect! That will go perfectly with his pictures about the human body. I just had to find the verse in the Bible. The verse reference hadn't popped into my head. I flicked through the Bible Psalms trying to find it. I then went into the prayer room. We usually pray before everyone arrives. Another brother came in and I asked him if he knew where the verse was. Then the miraculous occurred..

He said Peter had just asked him where that verse was. Peter is my friend that was speaking. However, I hadn't told him the verse yet. I knew instantly the Holy Spirit was telling both of us simultaneously to use the same verse. The Bible is a fairly large book. So focusing on one little verse that just happens to pop into the head of two people at the same time? - GOD.

We found the verse and I excitedly told Peter. When I sense God's active presence I always get excited. The message was wonderful and not only did Peter state that verse but many other verses just popped into his head. At one stage he became a Scriptural machine, stringing verse after verse together. We both knew the Holy Spirit was at work. Peter hadn't prepared any of the verses he quoted. What began as having very little Scripture ended with extensive Scriptural quotes woven together perfectly by the Grand Weaver. The same Grand Weaver that wove us together in the womb.

 The same Grand Weaver to whom David said "I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well" Psalm 139:14

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Forgive Always

In a previous Blog I wrote about my latest assignment, on loving neighbor and loving your enemy. I had watched a series of films on the Jewish Holocaust. I then ventured into further reading of the historical events. God had not finished teaching me about love of enemy and forgiveness.

Love conquerors all. It is a power that far surpasses violence, dominance or revenge. A week after reading of Dr Josef Mengele, the Nazi who had conducted horrific experiments on Jewish children, God was to challenge me incredibly. If you read in my last blog I asked God, "How can we forgive such things?". I even condemned the man for his ghastly deeds and sentenced him to hell. I felt pain in my heart for the defenseless children and the mother's tormented anguish at having their little ones torn from their arms at Auschwitz, I was shocked and distressed. Part of me wanted retribution.

Again humanity's capacity for evil confronts us. Relativism, existentialism, rationalism - beware the 'isms', they never give an answer for evil. Most certainly evil exists within us. Their isnt a religion on the planet that does not agree we are broken and have the capacity for evil. Denying evil exists is simply ignorance. Richard Dawkins would argue his Darwinian theory of natural selection, survival of the fittest etc. Ironically that view falls well within the sphere of Nazi socialism. I have since learnt Hitler was also an advocate of Euthanasia. Especially for the mentally retarded or disabled!

Yet, amongst such cruelty God was to guide me, lovingly and patiently to a Saint. A real one. Not simply someone that professes to be a Saint because they believe in Jesus. Rather one whose actions point to that of a Saint. There is a difference. Eva Kor is her name. I didn't know this woman existed until a week after writing my last blog. Thus hopefully you will see God's guidance and teaching unraveling. Teaching me about loving even your enemy and forgiving always.

"Eva Kor is a survivor of both the Holocaust and of the twin experiments conducted by Nazi doctor Josef Mengele. She and her twin sister Miriam survived Auschwitz, and then moved to Israel. While Miriam stayed in Israel, Kor met and married Holocaust survivor Michael Kor, before moving to Terra Haute, Indiana with him. There, she created the CANDLES (Children of Auschwitz Nazi Deadly Lab Experiments Survivors) Holocaust Museum. " Rin Wilhelmi (read about her here)

She had forgiven her tormentor. She had publicly forgiven him and thus found the true freedom we receive  in forgiving others. I wept, I wept profusely. God was speaking to me yet again. I could hear Him. His words were clear enough. "If she can forgive Dr Mengele and she suffered through it, how much more should you forgive?"

Christ's words have never been truer in the power of Eva Kor's forgiveness. "Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do".

God Bless

Monday, May 2, 2011

Perfect Direction

The last few days seem to have been spliced together in an editor's production room. An unfolding script, orchestrated by God, to produce a harvest. I publish this blog post smiling, still basking in the afterglow which I hope to share.

Some friends had come to see me and handed me a video, a contemporary rap message of the gospel. It was well executed, modern and cross culturally perfect for a younger post modern audience. Its arrival was timely, that week I was to share my testimony at a teenage concert of over a hundred people. Another friend had invited me to speak there, and somehow I knew people were going to be saved. It never ceases to amaze me how the Lord directs us, even when we don't know He is doing such. Part of that is making yourself totally available to His will, rather than one's own.

I wanted Souls.

I wanted to see people saved. I showed the rap message to the concert organiser. He was instantly thankful, for he knew it was an answer to prayer. He had asked God how he could move from a concert setting into a Christian testimony seamlessly without distracting from the flow. The audience was primarlily15-18+ and so attention span was limited. The arrival of the video was profound. We both sensed God's hand in it.

I sat and watched it over and over. I then thought, I need to show some pictures to support my own testimony. Photographs that would be inspirational and add impact to the verbal account. I gathered some old shots of me in Cambodia as soldier, parachuting in the special forces, the fast cars and girls, the travel and the drugs. I then designed a display theme similar to the video. Again creating a seamless flow. By the end of the week I was excited. I truly believed people were going to be saved.

I needed Bibles..

I went to the local Christian bookstore to buy 20 Bibles. When I arrived they were having a 20% storewide sale. Another God sign. I purchased the Bibles and thanked God for the discount. The concert was the following day.

I had forgotten to arrange a projector. A friend sent me a text and stated I have a projector for you. I hadn't even asked him. I left for the concert without a projector screen. I asked God to provide one. When I arrived another friend said you will need a projector screen. I said "yes I do". We jumped in a car went to another Christians house who produced a brand new projection screen. It was still in its box! I thanked God again, I was really getting excited by this point.

People started to arrive and the hall filled out. Some other Christians arrived and said they were doing a drama. The 'everything' drama. I knew it well, it is my life! God was directing everything in perfect unison. From the Video, to the drama to my testimony, the Bibles, I was somehow managing to keep up with God's presence as He weaved everything together.
The crowd was noisy, I started to worry they wouldn't pay attention. Negative thoughts were pounding me. No one will give their life to Jesus, You are going to look like a fool if you ask. At that point I knew it was Satan. I wanted someone to pray for me. Ten minutes later a trusted friend appeared from Bible college. I didn't know he was coming. I smiled walked up to him and said pray for me I am giving my testimony and I am to ask for people to be saved. He prayed earnestly.

The drama captured the young audience. It told of how we run after false things and get detached from God, to the point of suicidal thoughts -  again a mirror of my actual pre conversion life. The video was then displayed. Powerful speakers projected the message and the young audience connected with the genre the Gospel was portrayed in. My Testimony was next. When the presentation concluded all were clapping as I stepped onto the stage. By this point you can only trust God and let go, fear is no longer an option.

You hardly remember what is said. By the end I was standing on the stage and asking people to raise their hands and give their lives to Jesus. At which point they would be given one of the Bibles (holding the box aloft). Nobody. Not one hand. I was not giving up. I asked again. My heart pleading. Nobody. Then, slowly, in the front row, a young man of about 17 raised his hand. Joy burst into me. I praised God and jumped down to hand him a Bible. Then the next hand, and another, another, a group of young girls, an older lady, another young man! By the end 19 Bibles were given and all the new converts were called into a back room where we prayed together, beaming smiles all round.

Only 19 of the Bibles were taken of the twenty. Why? Because I left one at home! I only had 19 out of the twenty with me. Which was the precise number required. Perfect Direction.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Love your neighbour

For the last week and a half I have been writing an assignment as part of my Masters Degree. The topic I had chosen to study was Love of Neighbor, Love of God and the parable of the Good Samaritan. I had grappled with some of the world's leading theologians - Karl Barth, Karl Rahner, John Stott and George Ladd. Sometimes it actually hurts your brain. You can feel it fighting against you, its lazy and wants to not think. The firing of the neuron net means work and thus it would rather watch a movie and simply switch off. Watching movies though doesn't develop deep thinkers.

I needed my movie fix. I needed to give my brain a break. So what did I just happen to watch? Every movie I knew of that pertained to the Holocaust. I sat and watched the "The Pianist", "Uprising", "A Courageous Heart" and "Defiance". Each one an amazing true story all revolving around the same area - the Warsaw ghetto where the Nazis enclosed over 400,000 Jewish people. Then systematically exterminated them. I watched these movies in between studying love neighbor/love enemy. Can you imagine that? I didn't pre plan it. I didn't sit down and think "I am going to study love of enemy, so maybe as part of the research I should watch some movies about human atrocities" - and yet here I was watching them - as a break from study!

I got angry, I wept, at one stage I read of a horrific man in Treblinka (a Nazi death camp) that posed as a Doctor, they called him 'Doctor Death'. As tears streamed down my face after reading of what he had done to children, I said to him - "may you burn in Hell!" . God sat back and listened intently to my heart. I would then return to reading about 'Love even your enemy'. I said to God - How? How can what I am seeing here be forgiven?

As I watched the Jewish uprising and saw a small band fight to the death against the Nazis I again said to God "I would have fought alongside them God.... I am sorry". As an ex soldier (which I am) the option to take up arms in such a situation is certainly a consideration, even now as a Pastor.

And yet God was trying to show me another way...

I read Martin Luther King's novel Strength to Love. I admire Christians that live the faith. They are few and testify to Christ's words  Himself... "Few find the narrow path". When you read of  David Livingston, William Carey, Francis of Assisi, Hudson Taylor, Mother Teresa, or Martin Luther King, something is different about the caliber of these people.

Not only did they read and write about the faith - they lived it. They actually lived and experienced it. My admiration for such people far surpasses the learned theologian that experiences their faith only through study. Without the practice, theology is mere philosophy. And has nothing to qualify its findings other than the fallible human brain confined in a seminary.

King's words spoke powerfully to me, the man that would be martyred in peaceful protest against violent rebuke encapsulated Christ's message -


"Jesus eloquently affirmed from the cross a higher law. He knew that the old eye-for-an-eye philosophy would leave everyone blind. He did not seek to overcome evil with evil. He overcame evil with good. Although crucified by hate, he responded with aggressive love". (Martin Luther King).

Friday, April 22, 2011

I Love you

More often than not we look for God in large miraculous events, rather than seeing Him in the smaller details of life. We live in a galaxy that is part of a universe  so vast our instruments of measurement continually need adjustment to cope with its scale. NASA releases new images periodically that show us how immense the universe actually is. And subsequently how small we are. Consider one atom, its intricacies and its scale. Consider the detail of one strand of human DNA containing over 500,000 characters of information. Enough information to fill 10,000 books with 500 words. Amazingly people point to the ink and paper and yet disregard the option that an author was involved. Intelligent design is seen in our microscopic DNA as well as in the breathtaking beauty of galaxies.

God as a Masterful Designer pays attention to detail.

The other day I had decided to fast. I do not fast maybe as much as I should, there certainly is no rules to fasting, its a personal thing between you and God and when you feel called to it. Through the Bible this is always in times of need. I had a need and thus I went without food for the day. A friend had invited me over for dinner that night. And so I had resolved to break the fast at dinner. By six pm (after not eating since the night before) I was hungry. Mild discomfort, yet I also noticed my senses heightened spiritually and a serene feeling of joy. Nothing to complain about that's for sure.

When I arrived at my friends I didn't tell them I was fasting of course. We are told in the Bible not to make a big deal of it. Again its personal between you and God. As I sat down for dinner, a delicious plate of lamb chops were given to me. Lamb chops rate as one of my favourite meals. But I won't buy them, at $30 a kilo they are outside of my budget and thus I pass them by and think I don't need that. In fact, just that week I had walked past them at the supermarket and thought "too expensive". I often look out to see if they are on special, though that seems to be a rarity. Lamb chops are everyone's favourite and so the price matches the demand.

So when you have fasted all day and night, and sit down to a surprise plate of lamb chops, you know it is God. You are shocked, even dismayed. How could a being that creates Galaxies, designs DNA and overlooks 6 Billion lives, care so much that He orchestrates your favourite food at the end of a fast, simply to say.......I Love you.

"But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, so that it will not be obvious to to men that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen, and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you" (Matthew 6:17-18)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Providence not 'Coincidence'

"Just as Gehazi was telling the king how Elisha had restored the dead to life, the woman whose son Elisha had brought back to life came to beg the king for her house and land" (1 Kings 8:5).

My Collins Mini Thesaurus states Providence as " destiny, divine intervention, fate, fortune, God' s will, predestination". Its an old word that seems to slip further and further from modern secular vocabulary. Sadly it is replaced with coincidence. Yet coincidence says nothing of God's involvement. Rather, it points to chance and our thinking merges with secular society and the atheist paradigm. We become blind to God's involvement in our lives, even when He is acting!

In this passage it shows that what appears to be coincidence is in actuality providence. God ensures that as the witness is given about Elisha working a miracle, that the actual person the miracle was performed for walks into the King's court at that exact time! She had been out of the country for seven years until that moment. What are the odds that when she would return to her country and visit the king's court that her life would be the topic of discussion at that exact moment? The odds are impossible. And thus the God to whom all things are possible then acts. To show HIS hand.

Not long ago I had given a message at a church, generally about providence and God acting in our lives. Afterwards a young lady enthusiastically wanted to join Street Chaplains, a ministry I am involved in. I gave her the Director's number for her to contact. On returning home I emailed the Street Chaplain Director and informed him of the young lady and left it at that.

A week later I was in a shopping centre. I had decided to go to the shops to buy a pair of jeans. I am not a big shopper  (especially for clothes) so being there for this purpose was a rarity. As I left the store I noticed the Street Chaplain Director standing near a coffee shop. As I walked  near I also noticed the young lady that had wanted to be a Street Chaplain. The two were standing apart and my mind quickly deducted they were actualy waiting to meet each other and hadn't recognised one another (they had never met before). I  walked into the middle of both of them and pointed at each of them and smiled. The Director was on his mobile about to call her!

I shook their hands and walked off amazed at God's timing! What are the odds? That the same person that would be the mediator for these two people meeting a week prior (on the other side of the city) would be walking past them as they waited to meet each other a week later (now at the opposite end of the city)! The odds are impossible.

Providence - not Coincidence. Look for it and you will be amazed at how often God is acting in your life.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Daniel

Last night was my monthly roster as Street Chaplain. I always get excited, sometimes apprehensive, sometimes even feelings of negativity come on me before an all night ministry on Perth's entertainment district. The day before the night is prayerful and reflective. Tentatively you pray to God, after three years of seeing prayers powerfully answered (often not the way you expected) you are wary about what to pray for. You learn to pray specific rather than vague.

I had asked for souls. The opportunity to help people and show love. And maybe get to witness of Christ's love and work on the cross. Of Christ's forgiveness.

As three Chaplains ventured out the small group made a good team. Each had true faith, one from Kenya, one from Scotland and one from Australia. the Body, the church. Before long we were talking to a group of young Aboriginal men. No doubt many would judge them (harshly) and in turn receive back what they were giving out. Thanks to Christ, none of that was in our little church. We stopped and chatted with the boys, they were friendly, even respectful of us being Chaplains. One was in trouble with the police for street drinking. The police doing their job and giving a move on notice and warning. The work of the police in Northbridge is demanding and thankless. They do an amazing job.

The young man was Daniel. Something clicked between us. I chatted with him shook his hand, He was a stocky powerfully built young man, yet I could see his heart and I think he saw mine. He warmly introduced himself to all three of us and encouraged us for what we were doing.

We moved on.


Not long after whilst walking towards the Court Hotel, a young man came up to us and asked what Street Chaplains were? I sensed he was either homosexual or bi sexual and therefore I sought to be as warm and as kindly as I could be toward him. He asked a few questions about our religion. I told him I didn't have one, I told him I have a relationship not a religion. I follow Jesus. He liked that, most people are not negative towards Jesus, rather they are negative towards Religions that have judged them. He then admitted to me he was bi-sexual and said no doubt you will curse me now. I smiled and said why would I do that? I am no less guilty of sin than you are.

We kept talking and I saw my opportunity to tell him I had been abused as a child, that forgiveness had played a key role in releasing me from pain and sin. Many homosexual or bi -sexual people have had a similar experience in their infancy. You throw it out there like fly fishing never knowing what you will get. He was enthralled by my concept of forgiveness freeing us from bitterness. That my forgiveness does not condone the guilty member but frees us from their continual entrapment. He liked it, he liked it a lot. We shook hands and off he went.

Immediately three Chaplains prayed in unison under a tree for this man, that God would take the seed and help it grow. We were all blessed to feel Joy at that moment, Heaven was pleased.

Druing the night we found ourselves often at the right place at just the right time, a helping hand, a kind word, a prayer. Not coincidence but God incidence. The most powerful  God Incidence, however, was yet to occur. Later in the night we bumped into Daniel again. He was now crashing his powerful shoulder into people he passed by, his own inner anger surfacing towards others. We stopped and chatted, he calmed and opened up to us. He even told me he used to go to church with his mother all the time, and that he missed it now. He asked for my number, I pray he calls.

As the curtain drew to a close on God's stage, we arrived at the police station to hand in our little backpack. I had offered to take the wonderful Kenyan Chaplain home as she lived north of the river. As we handed our gear into the station a young African man was asking the police to give him a lift home (not part of the Police's responsibility). He lived in the same area as the Kenyan Chaplain. I knew God was saying "give him a lift home" I walked up to him and said we are headed that way we can take you home, we are Street Chaplains. He was thankful, so to was the on duty police officer.

As we left the station I asked the young man what His name was? He responded..."Daniel"

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Trusting in Horses and Chariots

The past ten days had seemed so very quiet (hence a quiet blog). You get accustomed to seeing signs from God, especially when they are happening all the time. When they stop, it feels like a drought. I had been studying a particular theological book and the writer was giving practical advice in regard to the ups and downs of ministry blessings. He called them mountains and valleys.

In his own ministry he had experienced much of both. Initially the valleys would form in between the euphoric highs of the mountains and often would bring depression. A low period, even feelings of insecurity; thinking have I done something to upset God? However, over time this learned man had realized something I hadn't ( though I was about to). The lows are there to allow our bodies to rest. To recharge, to be satisfied in the simplest of things not just in the 'highs'. Contentment in all situations (see Apostle Paul). There I was feeling low that God was quiet and as I read this book I suddenly realised God was talking to me - direct, yet again. Straight away my heart rate increased, I was on the way back up a mountain! Adrenalin pumping and the euphoria of a God sign sitting in the palm of my hand. I don't know what I was more excited about, the fact God had made Himself very aware to me or that the advice He was giving me was so practical. You NEED DOWN TIME as much as the ups.

The novel even went on to say that these lows allow us to be ready for God when God does act. For we mere humans can't keep up with Him. It is us that ultimately need the rest - not God. This got me even more excited. That night I found it hard to sleep - too excited now about the prospect of God acting again soon! Surely I must exasperate God at times.

During the quiet time, I was looking for God anywhere; emails, donations, invites to public speaking, even the website's statistics. Everything went quiet. I then felt I am putting my faith in man  made things not in God. I should be trusting and waiting for God. Then it happened, the impossible. The statistics for the website on the 27th of March, produced an algorithm that is almost impossible to repeat. Seven visitors, created seven hits and seven page impressions. 7777. A very quiet day for traffic but a very loud way of God saying "Don't trust in horses or chariots - trust In the name of the Lord your GOD" (Psalm 20:7).

That week I received a $2000 donation for the ministry and was invited to speak to a gathering of 640 people to share my testimony.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Learning - always learning

In the Gospels people often call Christ - Teacher. That's because that is part of His Role - teaching us how to be human. All week I had studied addictions, idolatry and counselling methods from a Christian perspective. I had read through and watched countless testimonies of ex addicts (chronically addicted, often in horrific circumstances) being released into freedom by Christ.

As I visited a particular addicted man in that very situation (Morphine, Marijuana, Nicotine) I realised that as I was studying how to care for the addicted; the Teacher (Christ), was giving me practical experience simultaneously. At first I hadn't even realised it, until today when I left him (spending about two hours together) it dawned on me that Christ was teaching me - powerfully. The theory I had been reading matched exactly to what was occurring, one particular book telling me to build relationship first then lovingly move to the next step of getting the addict to accept responsibility for his actions. Rather than blaming the world. Earlier on in the week that is exactly what he had been doing, blaming everyone for his situation other than himself.

Today we sat and after going for a meal (the Lord leading me to get him some food - addicts don't eat much) we sat and watched three amazing testimonies of ex bikers, hells angels and gang members coming to freedom in Christ. Men that this tattooed man could relate to, men that sinned more than he had. Yet they had found forgiveness. The Teacher guiding every step of the way. All week I had struggled in facing my own imperfections and the tendrils of addiction that still haunt those that have come through hell (or what felt like hell).

When you read about addictions (as an ex addict) it certainly makes you face yourself. Wanting another person freed can feel like an overwhelming burden, yet yourself can do nothing other than give testimony, point to Christ and pray. And then Let Christ do the work. Your own burden should actually be lite (Mt 11:28). 

Today a meeting was booked with a Christian Rehab centre and a detox centre (both to occur next week). Each has an eight week waiting list. You share the frustration of the addicted now willing to go, and then having to wait. (Hence you plan to open another rehab centre to share the burden). You are there to be a friend (a sober one), to pray, and to stand as an example of hope. If Christ could free me, he can free you.

Learning - always learning.

Christ be with you

Sunday, March 13, 2011

I have Got your back Covered

It had been a fairly difficult two weeks. The Lord had me come alongside a Morphine Addict. 38, covered in tattoos and I loved him. Straight away I felt for him and wanted him saved. Freed from the hellish existance the drugs had entrapped him in. He would listen carefully to me tell him about Jesus and how Jesus had set me free from drugs and that Jesus could do the same for him. Yet everytime I left He would stick another needle into his arm. I felt as if this man wont live much longer like this. It played heavy on my soul.

During it I wept, got frustrated and felt helpless. I prayed for him and further into the pit I seemed to be sliding. Yet the Lord didnt let me fall all the way into the pit of depression. Holding me firmly at its edge and strengthening me, he told me two words "wisdom experience". The burden of feeling another's soul in anguish but not getting dragged totally into their pit. Being strong enough through Jesus to get into the pit with them, then, climb out. With or without them. Real strength. Jesus' strength.

Along the way, at probably the lowest point, God decided I needed some encouragement. He sent me a photograph from Cambodia. The children had all recieved their brand new tshirts. Each one had the Harvest of Hope Logo on their back and God had pictures taken to show me. As i looked at the little ones and seeing God's continual provision and love for them I felt God say "See, Jack, you need not worry, I GOD have got their backs covered".

It picked me up and helped me to be stronger for the addict. Our God the God of encouragement, the God who has YOUR back covered.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

It is more blessed to give than to receive

Recently I felt the urge to share the blessings I was receiving with other ministries I knew about. One of which in the Philippines, House of Hope, the brother organisation to Harvest of Hope. The rehab centre in the Philippines operates humbly and the men there live by seeking God's provision in answer to prayer.

I had sat at home and prayed myself. I asked the Lord if I could send $1000 to the Philippine's ministry. I felt that $300 could go to the children they help (for they also operate a small school for impoverished children from nearby slums) and the remaining $700 to go to the men to take them out for a day. A blessing, for without funds taking 40 men out is a rarity. After the prayer, by faith, I decided to send the money and sent an email informing them about it and what the funds were for. I finished the email by stating this is From the Lord - not Jack. Something we can only state by faith. For when do we know or not know it is from the Lord but only by faith can we say so?

Within three hours I received an amazing email in return. The men stated that very morning they had prayed to the Lord asking for funds for their children's graduation and for taking the men out for their annual summer outing. All of which I knew nothing about. They praised God and knew instantly that the sending of the $1000 was a direct answer to the prayer. I myself also sat in amazement, for at that point you realise that the Lord Christ, through the Holy Spirit, had directed your hands, miraculously. The blessing is then shared for it is better to give than receive. For seeing God our faith increases and we marvel at His Love, compassion and guidance. The Living God - who acts in our lives.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

7777 - Quadruple Blessing

The number seven is a significant number throughout the Bible. 7 days of creation, the 7 miracles of Jesus in the book of John, the 7 churches of Revelation. etc. I often look for the number in seeking signs from God. I certainly avoid 666!

Today on the way to submitting my long overdue tax return I saw a car drive past with 7777 on its number plate and immediately my mind thought 'quadruple blessing'. My tax return included the submission of some land I had sold a few years earlier and I potentially owed a significant amount in capital gains tax. I was slightly worried. I had prayed to the Lord that if I only owed $20,000 dollars I would give $20,000 to charity. Not that one should make bargains with God, however it was my request all the same. And I felt reasonable in asking such, especially as I wanted the funds to go to Christian ministries in need. As I drove there I knew a few friends were praying for me and then the car drove past with the number...

On ending the meeting the tax return came to $21,000 owing (3x7), I felt the blessing immediately and thanked the Lord and took the opportunity to witness such to the accountant. Who smiled and said 'well there you go'.

On return home I received a letter from State Revenue stating that the stamp duty on Harvest of Hope's land had been wavered. A saving of $12,000 dollars. Second blessing. I was overwhelmed. I then received an email from a Pastor I had met; inviting me to come and speak to his Church about Harvest of Hope. Third Blessing. I was starting to catch on! And thanked the Lord in prayer.

Finally my submission for Masters Degree Thesis was accepted - 20,000 words on addictions, Idolatry and the first and second commandment of Love God and others. A true blessing to the ministry. Forth Blessing.

To Christ be all the Glory.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

1 Million Dollars

Whilst visiting Pastors right across WA, God's hand is often seen and His voice heard. The other day I talked with a Pastor in Port Kennedy. He gave me a one million dollar note (which was actually a Bible tract). I thanked him and told him I had prayed to God asking for funds for the ministry that day. Later in the afternoon I visited Riverton Baptist church. I gave my testimony which included my time as a soldier and world gallivanting business executive (my pre-conversion 'jack the lad' lifestyle). On leaving one of the Elders called out "What is it like to have a million dollar life Jack?".

I was amazed, he obviously didn't know I had a million dollar Bible tract in my wallet, but God did. Then the Pastor turned and handed me a $50 donation for the ministry. God had answered the prayer for funds, reassured that He would provide for Harvest of Hope's mission and He had spoken through an elder with a knowing smile. The personality and presence of the Lord is there with us, If only ears and eyes would see, turn, repent and He would heal them.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Feeding the Hungry

As Street Chaplains, staff of Harvest of Hope see God's hand powerfully on the late and early morning streets of Northbridge (Perth's entertainment district). Last night was no exception. The night was full of incidents pointing to God's love and providence. Helping a woman who had drug overdosed and providing a pillow for her head and a soft hand to stroke her hair as she violently vomited. Restraining fighting Aboriginal girls 'hell-bent' on hurting each other. Or giving out water and food to the homeless. The night was a constant movement in God's direction to those in need. At the beginning of the night Raymond had taken some food for the homeless. The food ran out within the first hour.

However, on venturing to the Christian Cafe - the Overflow - we were donated six gourmet sandwiches just as the Cafe closed. We knew instantly this was God's provision and an answer to prayer. Within two hours each sandwich had been given to the most needy. Old and homeless men who appreciated the food. Jesus is still feeding the hungry, you only need pray then open your eyes.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Add to your faith Goodness and Knowledge

God is Awesome. Today our Program Director Mr Raymond Neo was accepted by Sydney School of Divinty for his MA Honors. This was an amazing answer to prayer for Raymond had originally applied for the MA and was unsure of being accepted for this. The normal path to Honors taking a full 3 years and costing a considerable amount of money. By faith Raymond had donated over $10,000 to the Harvest of Hope charity towards the building of the rehab centre.  Two days later Raymond's application was converted to acceptance at Honors level saving one year of study and.. over ten thousand dollars in fees. You can never outgive God and he honors those that honor him!